You know what the worst is? No? Well, how could you there are a bazillion answers to that. At the moment, I’m talking about rewriting. Now let me be clear, there are different kinds of rewriting. Most of them are not awful at all. Like:
When you decide a scene doesn’t work and cut it. Then you have to rewrite
When you decide a scene no longer makes sense because of other changes so you rewrite parts.
When you decide a scene isn’t adding enough so you cut it and add in some sort of one line transition.
Now all of these don’t suck. They aren’t always fun, but they don’t suck. I have a magical folder on my computer called ‘deleted scenes’ in which I hold these little gems. I never look at them again but having them there keeps there from being a little hole in my soul.
What sucks is when you LOSE your work and have to rewrite it. For me what happens then is whatever I wrote becomes the best writing I ever did, will ever do. It is impossible I can ever write that so well again. In fact, I might as well give up writing because to write that again would only be a shallow imitation of real art.
Why do I feel this way? If you know, I’d love to be educated. All I know is logic doesn’t have any part of the madness.
This week I lost one of my notebooks, in which there were several scenes I had not yet transferred to the computer. I obsessed. I turned the house upside down. I sat at my computer and pried approximately five words out of myself over a solid hour before quitting.
This morning I found that notebook and read the scene. It’s awful. Terrible. Just… I don’t even want to put it on the computer.
On the upside, since I couldn’t get any real writing done last night I got a huge laugh out of doing character interviews with some friends on CC. And did a final edit of my synopsis before sending out some queries today.
But I think I’ll frame that awful scene. Literally frame it on my office wall and stare at it next time I lose/delete something I can’t retrieve. Maybe I will believe tangible proof that just because it’s gone doesn’t mean it’s good.
Oh and my phone is still broken so now I get to decide if I’m going to dredge up some internet pictures of find some highly inappropriate picture from my personal stash to tack onto this.
3 thoughts on “The Best Writing I’ll Ever Do”
When I loose work the hardest part about rewriting for me is purely based on the principal that i now have to do it again. I would rather spend hour/days trying to recover the work then the hour it may take me to rewrite.
I know, right? Its one of those things that just gets under your skin.
Internet picture, right?
OK, so now you know when you delete or lose written words you can go on with your life. What next?
How is the wild man you live with?